I don't know what to do with my days since school has ended. Kara works all day and I usually sleep until about noon. I can only sweep the floor so many times and we never really have much else to do around here. I find myself playing a lot of xbox, even when I don't feel like it. Fall quarter ended too abruptly. I wasn't fully engrossed in studying like I should have been and my grades suffered. I'm disappointed in myself to say the least and my winter quarter goal is at least a 3.x GPA. I'm absolutely positive that my mental capacity can handle it and achieve it.
Christmas is right around the corner and i'm having mixed feelings about it. This year Kara and I have chosen a bit of a different path. Instead of splitting the day up between our two separate families, we are going to attend her parents on Christmas day and then the next day we're going to host my family at our house. I love spending time with the Altics and i'm glad that we don't have to run off after a few hours to cram time with my family. I'm beyond excited to spend the day with my brother Ryan and sister Erica and her boys and my parents. I wish for nothing more than Matt and Natalie and their boys to make it but I understand financial hurtles prevent that. I also wish my sister Veronica would get her head out of her ass and bring her family but that's hopeless.
Despite my excitement of spending the day with my families, my financial downfalls are gonna make this Christmas a real bummer gift wise. I LOVE to give my families things, to see the joy on their faces when they receive a gift and knowing it's something they really enjoy. This year isn't going to be so bright in that department. Quitting hh gregg was the best thing I could have done for my mental health and relationship but it's taken a huge toll on my finances and this Christmas is going to reflect that. I know that Kara understands my monetary woes and isn't expecting a lot but it really makes me feel pretty crappy because she honestly deserves the world. That girl keeps me afloat when I feel like drowning and sometimes saves me when I am. Speaking of Kara, we have decided to move our wedding up to the end of February and going to Vegas! It's going to be a great time and going to take so much stress off of her since she was planning it all by herself.
I'm patiently waiting to hear back from the Dayton Police Department regarding my test results from the recent civil service exam. It should be about 2-4 weeks longer before I hear anything but the anticipation is building! I know that my chances of securing one of the 60 positions is about 1 in 3300 but I can still dream right? That really would be a dream come true but I know that i'm going to have to work much harder to obtain that goal and i'm perfectly content with that.
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